Why do I bother?

I am tired of it. I am tired of being the bottom priority on his totem pole. I am tired of him not calling when he says he's going to call. I am tired of being put on hold while he hangs out with other people. I just messaged him and told him not to bother calling me tonight. We were supposed to hang out. It's now 10 o'clock. When exactly does he think we're going to have the time to do that? I am so over it. I hate right now that I like him so much.

In other news, the ex text messaged me last night. He told me he got me something in Mexico (when he went in February) and asked if I would like to have it. That is correct. After burning everything I ever gave him and pretending I didn't exist for 6 months, he brought me home a present from Mexico. He said he wasn't sure how to bring it up after everything that happened. The present? Before he left (when we were still friends) I jokingly told him to bring me back the beach. Well, he did. Part of it anyways. I cried when he told me that. That would have meant so much back then. Back when I loved him and he was my boyfriend. Now he's my ex and I'm still mad at him. Why did he do that?

I think I'm just over emotional today, but pfffft. Why why why. Why do guys do this to me!?

EDIT: J finally messaged me (it's just past 11). He was calming his friend down because he was in a fight with his girlfriend. Ironic. I'm not answering the phone. How hard would it have been to call me?