Gloomy Monday

I apologize in advance for the less then cheery post I am about to write. I'm just in one of those moods.

First of all, I am going to call the weather people out on being big fat liars. Weather reports call for 29 degrees and sunny. My backyard is showing 19 degrees and cloudy. Hopefully the clouds will part and I will be apologizing in a few hours for my lack of faith in the weather folk. As for now, I am putting away my new bathing suit and putting on socks.

This past week I have spent a lot of time with my mom. It's been fun renting movies, shopping and baking. But it makes me miss my friends. And this weekend I've been thinking a lot about one in particular.

My friend and I have been very close since we graduated from high school. However she is not accepting of me having a boyfriend. She likes J, and was fine hanging out with him when we weren't officially seeing each other. But since then things have changed. We used to go hang out with J and his friends (sometimes by her suggestion) but I stopped inviting her after awhile because she would sit there and mope, and would act uncomfortable. She has then since told me she does not want to hang out with J and I.

About a month ago, I was asked by somebody at work why I was ignoring her. I had no earthly idea what he was talking about. I talked to her everyday at work. Also for the previous couple of weeks I had tried to hang out with her on numerous occasions abut she always declined because she either had other plans or no money. Apparently she had been telling people that since I had a boyfriend, I had no time for her. I certainly never did anything to give her this impression (in my opinion). First of all, I hardly see J! Secondly, I never invited J if I had plans with her, and I never canceled plans with her to hang out with him. I haven't seen or heard from her for weeks now. After my last day of work, I was invited by J to go camping with his friends. I decided not to invite her because she had made herself clear about not wanting to be included. I haven't heard from her since.

I miss her, but I know I shouldn't try and be friends with somebody who makes up stories about me to try and justify her own actions. I am going to be whiny and say I don't think it's fair how she can be like this with me, and be completely fine and charming to all her other friends with boyfriends. I don't get what I've done differently then them.

Maybe I'll suck it up and call her this week, but a part of me thinks I'd just be playing into her childish games. She lives for drama. Maybe it's time I stop being a part of it.